HI ALL
Those butterflies have not settled down, I am so nervous and excited.
Alot has happened in the last week. Both some ups and downs. I rang APRA and they said that they would not have our Release of Super application finished until after the surgery, I was devastated because I could not ask anyone to lend us the money to get us through the surgery. So I spent most of that night crying, devastated that after the last 6 weeks of starvation the surgery might be delayed and I would have to go through the preparation again. I don't think I could have done that. We woke up on Wednesday and decided to see if we could come up with the money. Then very generously 2 people came through for us and leant us the money. Then of course as soon as we got the money in our account Apra rings and tells us that the application has been approved and now the super can be transferred. What a relief!! I must say that everyone that I had spoken to said if they had the money that would have helped us as well and that is just wonderful to hear that I have so much support behind me. THANKYOU!!
Wednesday I also went down to the chemist to weigh in, 15kg down now never to be seen again. I still can't wipe the smile off my face. I have basically lost a toddler, no wonder I feel so good.
Well we are all a go, tomorrow I just need to finish packing, then the next day we will be on our way!
Love
Jacqui x0x
Friday, February 13, 2009
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Buzzing Buzzing Bee Me!!
Hi All
Well I have been buzzing the last couple of days! I have so much energy I suppose losing 12 kilos will do that to you! Yes that was 12 kilos in 4 weeks, and I have not even been banded yet. I can't wait.
Went to work today, that was good. Looks like I will get some shifts next week which will not go astray because I have not a cent to my name, and it will keep me busy.
Grey's Anatomy starts back again tonight and I am trying to stay awake to watch it, but I am very tired.
Tomorrow I go to see my doctor (in Tamworth) which I am looking forward to I am sure she will be happy with my progress so far. I am going to ask her about seeing a dietitian and psychiatrist about my emotional eating. I have to have my pre op blood tests and need to ring APRA regarding the super to pay for operation.
BUSY BUSY BUSY!!!
Jacqui xox
Well I have been buzzing the last couple of days! I have so much energy I suppose losing 12 kilos will do that to you! Yes that was 12 kilos in 4 weeks, and I have not even been banded yet. I can't wait.
Went to work today, that was good. Looks like I will get some shifts next week which will not go astray because I have not a cent to my name, and it will keep me busy.
Grey's Anatomy starts back again tonight and I am trying to stay awake to watch it, but I am very tired.
Tomorrow I go to see my doctor (in Tamworth) which I am looking forward to I am sure she will be happy with my progress so far. I am going to ask her about seeing a dietitian and psychiatrist about my emotional eating. I have to have my pre op blood tests and need to ring APRA regarding the super to pay for operation.
BUSY BUSY BUSY!!!
Jacqui xox
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Excited Butterflies!
14 MORE SLEEPS!
I am so excited, but so are the butterflies in my stomach.
I have planned something nearly everyday to try to keep myself busy. I went to work yesterday and was in the kitchen, that was tough, but I did it and I think all of the kids were happy with the food! Today I am dying out the greys and getting my hair cut.
I am spending alot of time on the internet following my Fab Feb Bandits a forum I started up to be able to talk to others getting banded this month. It has started they started with the surgeries yesterday. After months of talking about it, it is a bit surreal that it is our time. I also follow my followers journeys some of them have already been banded and it is good to read their progress to see what I might be getting myself into. It has been important for me in this process to not feel alone, there are so many of us out there going through the same thing.
Well the decision was made yesterday that Lydia will not go down to WOY WOY with us she will stay home and stay and Aunty Shai's and Uncle Aaron's for the couple of days that we will be away. I think she is more excited about that anyway. We were worried that she would be upset seeing me in the hospital.
Well I better go and try to settle these excited butterflies down.
Take Care
Jacqui xox
I am so excited, but so are the butterflies in my stomach.
I have planned something nearly everyday to try to keep myself busy. I went to work yesterday and was in the kitchen, that was tough, but I did it and I think all of the kids were happy with the food! Today I am dying out the greys and getting my hair cut.
I am spending alot of time on the internet following my Fab Feb Bandits a forum I started up to be able to talk to others getting banded this month. It has started they started with the surgeries yesterday. After months of talking about it, it is a bit surreal that it is our time. I also follow my followers journeys some of them have already been banded and it is good to read their progress to see what I might be getting myself into. It has been important for me in this process to not feel alone, there are so many of us out there going through the same thing.
Well the decision was made yesterday that Lydia will not go down to WOY WOY with us she will stay home and stay and Aunty Shai's and Uncle Aaron's for the couple of days that we will be away. I think she is more excited about that anyway. We were worried that she would be upset seeing me in the hospital.
Well I better go and try to settle these excited butterflies down.
Take Care
Jacqui xox
Friday, January 30, 2009
Finally An Update!
Well it has been a while, but life has been very stressful lately.
Today I have had some great news and need to share it with the world. The surgeons office rang me today and asked if I would like to move my surgery forward one week. Needless to say I screamed YES OF COURSE back at them. That means one week less of dieing (sorry I mean dieting, optifast) ! Now we just have to make sure that everything goes through with APRA and the super is transferred in time. I am staying very positive everything has gone so well.
Now an update how I am going on the optifast diet.
I certainly have my ups and downs. A few tantrums along the way, one night I absolutely refused to eat my 1/2 cup of vegies because I was sick of them and wanted tuna and potatoe pie instead, I stormed off to the room crying! Yes I know it is soo childish. But you try starving yourself and watching everyone around you eat yummy food, it is very hard.
I have had plenty of time to think and came to the conclusion that the optifast diet sets you up for the lapband in a couple of ways
1 to cleanse your liver
2 to eat smaller amounts
3 to get used to never feeling full.
With the lapband if you feel full you have eaten too much and will probably bring the food back up, optifast with only the shakes and 1/2 cup of salad I never feel full. Unfortunately full used to be a friend of mine and I found comfort in it. So it has been a big change to have lost a friend but I just have to replace it with a healthier friend. I also came to the conclusion instead of counting down I should be taking it one day at a time. So instead of needing to get through a month of optifast I only need to get through today. Why I didn't think of this earlier in the process I don't know, it has been heaps easier if I feel tempted I tell myself that I just need to get through today.
Well weighed in today: 10.2kg down, never to be seen again.
Today I have had some great news and need to share it with the world. The surgeons office rang me today and asked if I would like to move my surgery forward one week. Needless to say I screamed YES OF COURSE back at them. That means one week less of dieing (sorry I mean dieting, optifast) ! Now we just have to make sure that everything goes through with APRA and the super is transferred in time. I am staying very positive everything has gone so well.
Now an update how I am going on the optifast diet.
I certainly have my ups and downs. A few tantrums along the way, one night I absolutely refused to eat my 1/2 cup of vegies because I was sick of them and wanted tuna and potatoe pie instead, I stormed off to the room crying! Yes I know it is soo childish. But you try starving yourself and watching everyone around you eat yummy food, it is very hard.
I have had plenty of time to think and came to the conclusion that the optifast diet sets you up for the lapband in a couple of ways
1 to cleanse your liver
2 to eat smaller amounts
3 to get used to never feeling full.
With the lapband if you feel full you have eaten too much and will probably bring the food back up, optifast with only the shakes and 1/2 cup of salad I never feel full. Unfortunately full used to be a friend of mine and I found comfort in it. So it has been a big change to have lost a friend but I just have to replace it with a healthier friend. I also came to the conclusion instead of counting down I should be taking it one day at a time. So instead of needing to get through a month of optifast I only need to get through today. Why I didn't think of this earlier in the process I don't know, it has been heaps easier if I feel tempted I tell myself that I just need to get through today.
Well weighed in today: 10.2kg down, never to be seen again.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
3 days down 46 to go!
Hi All
3 days down 46 to go!
Well yesterday and today were not so good. After lunch yesterday I suddenly came down with a migraine so I took my tablets and slept through until diner and then after diner I went back to bed. But before I went to bed unfortunately I slipped up and gave in to one of my cravings. I went to bed feeling like a failure.
I woke up this morning feeling better but still tired. Had my optifast breakfast, had a bit of a melt down because I was already hungry. I talked to my support team and decided that I can do this, no matter how I was going to loose weight it was never going to be easy. I just need to take it one day at a time and I will get there.
It is just lucky that I gave myself an extra week on optifast get through the tough stage so that I can give my liver the full 6 weeks of detoxing the surgeon asked for.
Hope this post finds you all well?
Jacqui xox
3 days down 46 to go!
Well yesterday and today were not so good. After lunch yesterday I suddenly came down with a migraine so I took my tablets and slept through until diner and then after diner I went back to bed. But before I went to bed unfortunately I slipped up and gave in to one of my cravings. I went to bed feeling like a failure.
I woke up this morning feeling better but still tired. Had my optifast breakfast, had a bit of a melt down because I was already hungry. I talked to my support team and decided that I can do this, no matter how I was going to loose weight it was never going to be easy. I just need to take it one day at a time and I will get there.
It is just lucky that I gave myself an extra week on optifast get through the tough stage so that I can give my liver the full 6 weeks of detoxing the surgeon asked for.
Hope this post finds you all well?
Jacqui xox
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
2 days down 47 to go!
Hi All
I am doing 7 weeks of optifast because the surgeon told me i needed to do 6 weeks because my bmi was so high 50.7, so I have given myself the first week to get into it without perfection. I need to keep reminding myself of this! I have been great though I made it through yesterday without any deviation. I went to bed at 7.30 and did not sleep very well at all I woke up every hour. I woke up this morning with a very bad headache. I know that I only usually have to put up with this until the third day which is when I usually start feeling heaps better and wake up with lots of energy. For diner I had stir fried vegies (1cup) and then the optifast chocolate bar. I tried to eat slowly like I would after op but I was a bit too hungry. I would say that the hardest time was waiting for diner and then after I went to bed which is when I would normally snack on chocolate!
I was having my last meal from the time I set the date for the surgery, i put on about 2 kilos over xmas. I was sick of eating by the time i was ready to start opti and was getting really bad pains in my stomach, so that is when i decided to start opti one week early.
Found a good quote yesterday: I eat a little so that I can live alot!
I am going to plaster this everywhere it sums up what i am doing this for, there is so much i want to do after i have lost the weight.
When will you find out about your date. I would find that very hard.
I got a letter from APRA yesterday saying that they received our application and gave us the reference number. They said it may take between 10 to 30 days to process, so i am not going to hassle them after 10 days I will ring and ask them how it is going.
Well I better go and keep myself busy!
Talk soon
Jacqui xox
I am doing 7 weeks of optifast because the surgeon told me i needed to do 6 weeks because my bmi was so high 50.7, so I have given myself the first week to get into it without perfection. I need to keep reminding myself of this! I have been great though I made it through yesterday without any deviation. I went to bed at 7.30 and did not sleep very well at all I woke up every hour. I woke up this morning with a very bad headache. I know that I only usually have to put up with this until the third day which is when I usually start feeling heaps better and wake up with lots of energy. For diner I had stir fried vegies (1cup) and then the optifast chocolate bar. I tried to eat slowly like I would after op but I was a bit too hungry. I would say that the hardest time was waiting for diner and then after I went to bed which is when I would normally snack on chocolate!
I was having my last meal from the time I set the date for the surgery, i put on about 2 kilos over xmas. I was sick of eating by the time i was ready to start opti and was getting really bad pains in my stomach, so that is when i decided to start opti one week early.
Found a good quote yesterday: I eat a little so that I can live alot!
I am going to plaster this everywhere it sums up what i am doing this for, there is so much i want to do after i have lost the weight.
When will you find out about your date. I would find that very hard.
I got a letter from APRA yesterday saying that they received our application and gave us the reference number. They said it may take between 10 to 30 days to process, so i am not going to hassle them after 10 days I will ring and ask them how it is going.
Well I better go and keep myself busy!
Talk soon
Jacqui xox
Monday, January 5, 2009
First day of Optifast today!!
Hi All
Started optifast today!
1 day down only 48 to go!
All was going well until about 11 oclock this morning, I started to get all jittery and really hungry. All of my muscles are fatigued (jelly legs) like I have just spent the day at the gym. The rest of the day has continued that way except for my 2.5hour nanny nap. Woke up at 4.30pm starving wanting diner but I am holding myself out until at least 7.00pm. Lucky that I am not working this week and HD was here to help today. Have others rostered on for the next couple of days, supervision is absolutely required I am not at all in control of my hunger pains or emotions.
I know it all sounds bad but I am the most confident that I have ever been for the first day of a diet. Knowing that it is basically the start of my operation and the beginning of the rest of my life!How are the rest of you going?
Talk later
Jacqui xox
Started optifast today!
1 day down only 48 to go!
All was going well until about 11 oclock this morning, I started to get all jittery and really hungry. All of my muscles are fatigued (jelly legs) like I have just spent the day at the gym. The rest of the day has continued that way except for my 2.5hour nanny nap. Woke up at 4.30pm starving wanting diner but I am holding myself out until at least 7.00pm. Lucky that I am not working this week and HD was here to help today. Have others rostered on for the next couple of days, supervision is absolutely required I am not at all in control of my hunger pains or emotions.
I know it all sounds bad but I am the most confident that I have ever been for the first day of a diet. Knowing that it is basically the start of my operation and the beginning of the rest of my life!How are the rest of you going?
Talk later
Jacqui xox
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